It's not a recommended remedy for dealing with pressure but Christian Lealiifano's successful battle against leukaemia has freed him from the crippling burden of his own expectations.
When Leliifano made his Test debut against the British and Irish Lions in Brisbane in 2013 aged 25, he was shackled by the expectations he placed on himself to perform and maintain his place in the Wallabies side.
Now, every opportunity is a blessing.
Lealiifano made an emotional return to the international arena in the Wallabies' win over Argentina at Suncorp Stadium on Saturday, three years after he played his last Test and following a health battle that put life - and rugby's place in it - into perspective.
"I think if you've gone through that, it's about trying to stay healthy - be a dad, be a son, be a brother, be a partner - those are my main ambitions, to be healthy enough to be able to be the best person I can be for them," he said after playing a key part in the Wallabies' 16-10 win over the Pumas.
"This is just an added bonus, I think.
"But to be able to get in here, I've had a different perspective through that and it's about being able to enjoy these moments as well.
"When I was younger and in the set-up, I probably put a lot of pressure on myself to try and make the most of the opportunity and (now) whatever happens, happens."
Before the teams lined up for the anthems, Lealiifano made his way to the 22, got down on one knee and gave thanks.
The prayer is part of his routine but the moment of reflection was not lost on thousands at the ground, who revelled in one of the great sporting returns and gave Lealiifano a rousing reception when he came off the ground 50 minutes into the match, having guided the Wallabies into a match-winning position.
"I'm just incredibly proud - not only for myself but the people that have put a lot of effort into getting me back," he said after the match.
"Obviously the doctors for getting me back to full health and then my family for their support throughout that.
"And in the rugby journey, my teammates, trainers, they've been monumental in getting me back, so it's a lot of emotions.
"But it's one that's really, really special for me and good to get the win as well."
Even before his health issues, Lealiifano thought his Test days may have come to an end.
After missing Michael Cheika's World Cup squad in 2015 and failing to gain a Test cap that year, Lealiifano played just three more games for the Wallabies in 2016, all off the bench.
"To say (whether) I thought it was a long way (away), I don't know," he said of regaining a Test cap.
"I still had the belief (before the leukaemia diagnosis) to try and get back and push my claims to stay in but I definitely had those thoughts (that it may not happen).
"After the illness, that (hope) definitely went away, I thought, 'I'm never going to play footy again'."
Lealiifano's sporting rebirth has been amazing though.
After returning to full health, he not only played again but helped the Brumbies to within a win of the Super Rugby final, winning his Wallabies return on merit.
Lealiifano's assured performance at no.10 was key to the victory, his accurate and timely kicking in general play - in concert with Will Genia and Kurtley Beale - giving the Wallabies a dimension they did not possess in South Africa, and one that has been lacking in so many of their recent losses.
"I thought he handled it pretty well, for his first foray back into the test arena for a while," Cheika said.
"He positioned himself nicely, he positioned others with his distribution, ran a couple of times, kicked his goals, defended well and I thought he was very, very solid in the 50 minutes he played."
The man himself called the fanfare around his return "humbling" but is more concerned with continuing to build his combination with Genia and Beale looking towards a pair of Bledisloe clashes that will determine whether he wins what would be a dream World Cup berth.
"The focus was just trying to contribute to the team as best I could," he said.
"I've obviously been grateful enough and lucky enough to get an opportunity and it was just about trying to do my job as best I could.
"It wasn't about trying to be flashy or whatever, it was about playing my game as I have all season and it was nice to get out there and run around."
The Wallabies host New Zealand at Optus Stadium, Perth, on Saturday August 10, kicking off at 5:45pm local, 7;45pm AEST, LIVE on Network Ten, FOX SPORTS, Kayo Sports and via RUGBY.com.au RADIO.
